So everyone who's ever been pregnant always talks about the hormones, and how you are totally irrational and uber-emotional all the time, and this whole time I've been thinking, "Well, I have noticed a slight difference, but nothing major." I thought I was pretty cool and level-headed for a pregnant chick.
Well, that's changed. I really first noticed it this week, when I spontaneously burst into tears of joy and excitement over the fact that I'm going to meet my sweet little baby in a few weeks. But no sooner did that lovely (if slightly bewildering) moment pass before I experienced a new emotion--paralyzing fear over the fact that said sweet little baby will be completely dependent on me to keep it alive. ME, of all people! Now, I'm no crackhead, but I did manage to wake up the other day, get dressed, head into work, walk into my office and go about my day for two straight hours before I'd realized I'd put my pants on backwards. On some levels, I am accomplished and organized, but then I can be a total dingbat. I could totally see myself being one of those idiots who leaves the car seat on top of the car and then drives off, or something like that. (I don't actually own a car, but you get the idea.)
Anyway, so those two emotions rolled over me in the space of about five minutes. These next few weeks ought to be interesting.
Well, that's changed. I really first noticed it this week, when I spontaneously burst into tears of joy and excitement over the fact that I'm going to meet my sweet little baby in a few weeks. But no sooner did that lovely (if slightly bewildering) moment pass before I experienced a new emotion--paralyzing fear over the fact that said sweet little baby will be completely dependent on me to keep it alive. ME, of all people! Now, I'm no crackhead, but I did manage to wake up the other day, get dressed, head into work, walk into my office and go about my day for two straight hours before I'd realized I'd put my pants on backwards. On some levels, I am accomplished and organized, but then I can be a total dingbat. I could totally see myself being one of those idiots who leaves the car seat on top of the car and then drives off, or something like that. (I don't actually own a car, but you get the idea.)
Anyway, so those two emotions rolled over me in the space of about five minutes. These next few weeks ought to be interesting.
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